Time of the year again

Time to review all my new year resolutions I wrote last year,

2008:
"Academic - I'll do my best for my Year 3 and get both my FYP and PP over and done with.
DB - Try my best to get into the main team.
Family - Spend more time with the people that always love me unconditionally.
Personal - Control my bad temper and learn to appreciate everyone.
Finance - Wait till I have like 10k before I start spending! (unrealistic hahahaha :P)"

Seems like I managed to accomplish most of them
except for my Bad Temper and Savings (I only got like 100 bucks left in bank now ;S) ahahaha.

So yeah, I conclude that 2008 is fruitful!


But this time for the coming 2010 I only have 1 resolution.
It's ganna be a secret cause it is something personal anddddd I thought it'll be more practical to have just 1 so I can focus on it better.
But if you wanna add "Enjoy life as much as I can" on the resolution list then yes! It'll be two.

Ehhh no wait, make it THREE! I wanna fly to Phuket with my budds!
Recently I got so inspired by this fine young lady I chanced upon on facebook.
Her profile pictures are full of her traveling around everywhere.
I wanna travel, I wanna see the world!

kbai! Happy holidays peeps,
and stay safe!

Hands Remember

"Do you remember,
what things looked like when you were young?
The voice of an old friend,
or the notes to your first song?

Lately I've been feeling like the day has come.
You'll walk up to me and erase my memory.
Can't wait to feel brand new,
I cant wait to meet you again,
friend..

I think I must have known you in another life.
I think our rocking chairs used to rock together
all night.."

Updates o Updates

Sorry for the lack of updates.
So I'm back from the long awaited Batam Trip :) It was a blast!!
I don't expect much, having fun with all my good buds is good enough.

Enjoy the video and here are 2 links to all the pictures I took.
Takecare and up next, COUNTDOWN PARTY!!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=181468&id=750531141&l=74a593ea16
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=181601&id=750531141&l=f6271b5e1d

Chalet

Lolol sorry for the past 2 days if I haven't been myself.
Don't know why I caught the emonemobug, but I'm fine now.

Just had a family chalet over the long weekend and I was really hoping that I could recharge myself from this break but in the end I fell sick instead -_- hahaha, goodness.
Been a long time since I spend time with my relatives, I remember last time all of us will meet up almost every weekend for gatherings. They still do now but I can't join them as often due to trainings and work.

That's why I'm in such a dilemma considering if I should continue paddling next year ARGHH!
I realised there's more things in life and I've been really selfish for this past 3 years.

That aside,
my brother, Derek and I accompanied Alvin to GAINT to shop for our BBQ on day 2.
LMAO it's the first time I actually shop for so much groceries, like about 3 trolleys full?!
I had fun honestly, shopping for food together with my cousins and brother is all I want to ask for in life :) Although the last night was kinda screwed up because of the dumb fever and flu. I still ENJOYED MYSELF! ALOT! Ciao peeps.

I'm proud to be in this team

Sorry if you think that this post is emotional or gay I don't really care.

I really want to let it all out and partly because I'm listening to friends forever, the song we sang together under the bridge for our very first set yesterday.

Other people often question or even mock at us.
Why the hell are we putting so much effort in a sport for? Why are you sacrificing so much? Are you crazy, why do you wake up so early during weekends?
And a few of us even went to the extreme and put too much priorities on the sport so much so that they neglect their studies.

But we should never blame these people who question us,
because none of them can feel what we experienced, the adrenaline rush when you're racing down seat by seat chasing other boats who are ahead. After late night training you still drag yourself to school the very next day. The hell day when the captains try their level best to break that big ego you brought in when you first join the team. Never can they feel all of this.

And the most memorable one I had so far, the part when we said glory is FOREVER.
I teared at the word "forever" there's nothing to be shy about. Because this is the first time I can hear from everyone's voice how much they really want it. I can tell from how tightly you guys gripped each other and that fire burning in each of your eyes.

I'm sorry that this year's Regatta have to end this way. But I've totally no regrets.
I told some of you this, we might lose the medals but we gained something much more valuable.
A simple and pure word, Bond or some of you may call it friendship.

I finally feel the pain of being a year 4.
That is I have to see people from my very first batch leave in front of my eyes yet I can't do anything about it.
If there's anything I can keep, I want time to stay after the debrief when we're all happily throwing the year threes high up in the air. I will never forget everyone of them.

I know most of you will be lost after today's race although we know our next goal is POLITE.
But from today till then it's going to be a long and tough journey. Let's try to keep as close to our promise as possible and train as hard as we can without complains.

Lastly I want to thank the people who came down who support us.
Good to see people like andreuw, nich, firdaus, kia, louis lee, faris, ky and alvin.

This year my regatta ended in a loop, I ran with nich on the side supporting RP all the way till the finishing buoy like how I did during my year 1 days. I remember that time I was running with my camera snapping pictures.
Good times good times.

I'm proud to be in this team.
goodnight.

Let the poets cry themselves to sleep

When the telephone was a tin can on a string
And I fell asleep with you still talking to me
You said you weren't afraid to die

The end of paralysis, I was a statuette
Now I'm drunk as hell on a piano bench
And when I press the keys it all gets reversed
The sound of loneliness makes me happier

And I never thought this life was possible
You're the yellow bird that I've been waiting for

brighteyes

Pee pee pee

Finally met up with my relatives after so many weeks of trainings
and I'm so happy to see everyone there including Kevin.

Grrrrr and recently for the past 2 weeks my grades are dropping!
Must get back all my A's.
So many stuffs coming up,
Regatta, Batam trip and the one I'm looking forward to, a family chalet in 2 weeks time!! Woohoo :)

And to the guys teammmmmmmmmmm,
I thank all of youuuuuuuuuuuuu veryvery much
for making the UOB night such a memorable one. Although the laopasat satays abit not worth it la. But still I really appreciate and enjoyed every second of it.

Once again from the bottom of my heart, "thank you!"
6 more days guys 6 more days.


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.

It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone..

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

Yet another classic word beauty
byeeeee

By your side

I had breakfast with my dad before training today.
I can't remember what we were talking about and he said this
"Louis, I think that you're very inferior."

Can't help but to agree..

I realise all these while whenever I'm put in a tough situation,
I always have zero confidence in myself.
I barely trust myself but instead allow all my negative thoughts to influence me.
I always doubt myself.

thinking too much is not good at all afterall..
please don't fight these hands that are holding you,
my hands are holding you.

Life is so short you know

I was on the train today and I observed this particular fella for quite some time.
He got his earphones plugged in, eyes shut and he was leaning against the glass panel.
From his expression, I can clearly tell that
he is either in deep thoughts or he is praying for something.

Then I closed my eyes and I prayed too.
I pray to no god, I prayed:
"To whoever he is praying too, please let his wish come through"

Because he looks so sincere.


Only 27 days more and everything will be over.
I really really really hope I won't get boot out during this period.
I wanna fight together with my niggas.

Alrighty till then fellas, goodnight.

and i hope you find a perfect place
where skies are are beautiful all of the time,
it's all that matters pretty pretty.

I'm a loser!

You'll always hear people telling you if you set a goal and work hard for it,
you'll definitely get what you want. But I don't think its true at all.

Sometime some stuffs are seriously beyond your capability.
No matter how hard you try, you just won't get it. There will always be problems that pop out along the way to bring you down. When I mean always, it always happen.

That's my life,
God-knows-why.

Bye.

Not trying to be pessimistic but realistic instead.
Words of wisdom oh words of wisdom.

Blues

Take this sinking boat and point it home.

I still got time.

So much more awake *SLAPS*

"I finally have this moment of clarity.
We can't choose our memories, the best ones just happen.
So what's the point of trying to create that perfect moment,
when the perfect moment is right now?"

From Bart got a room. :)


Been a long long time since I did a proper post.
Gotta say I really love blogspot! It's god-dam organise and plus it's very user friendly.
And also guys who pen down their thoughts ain't gay hor! ahaha!

So far life is good! Despite some minor setbacks it ain't ganna bring me down! (I hope).
Had a farewell party for our ex-seniors at St James not long ago, what a night! :P



Omg the new semester's ganna start soon.
Really must treasure this last semester with my Year 3 mates
before all of us get split up by NS.
After this semester we won't know whether our paths will ever meet again sia, better treasure!
But then again I got 1 more year to go la, AHAHAH I must stop losing things, CIAO!

"Each time you seek to change another, ask yourself this;

What will be served by this change?
Is it for my own pride, my pleasure, or just for my profit?"

I answered.
But but but wait, it's for your own good.

Justification

Images of broken light which
dance before me like a million eyes
They call me on and on across the universe

Thoughts meander like a
restless wind inside a letter box
they tumble blindly as
they make their way across the universe

Up life's spout

Took me dam freaking long to do this video
and dumb youtube won't let me upload due to copyright issues, arrrrrrrrrrh!! Bye!

"Up the spout" by mateo messina.

Moments

I realise that I'm much happier when I'm at home.
I'm ganna stay at home more often now!

Did this video today and I know I "chipmunked" the song and it won't do Oasis any justice,
but I was bored, so yeah, enjoy! later peeps.

swimswim

Some pics I took with a lousy film camera lolol.
Here's the rest on facebook:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=156184&id=750531141&l=3cdd02e1c6

Ciao, heading to town now for botak jones, pyepye! :)

If only I have the balls,
everything will change. Arghhh

updates updates

I'm back home after a long long day.
Went over to help Alvin paint his new house after work.
Hahaha but when I got there, almost 3/4 of the house was already painted by the uncles ;P

Up to nothing much lately,
I'm praying really hard for both my seat in the boat and FYP RESULTS (AHHH!).

I'll leave you guys with some screenshots of veryveryvery old pictures from my uncle's video, ciao!! ;]


prolly 20 billion years ago?



prolly 10 million years ago? AHAHA



hehe pimple hehe



me and my paps eating lok lok!



my paps, momo and me @ the eye of malaysia, interesting



Christ-ween



kpyepye!

it's funny how from simple things; the best things begin :)

what a wonderful world

I see trees of green, red roses too.
I see them bloom for me and you.
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white.
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night.
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.

and only i can see
what it means to be
sitting here in silence on my own

People need someone to follow
because they can't accept that God is inside and not outside.
You're your own savior and only you can get to Enlightenment.
Believe in yourself because you are God, you must discover this to be truly at peace.

When the student is ready, the teacher will come.

Some youtube comments are just mind blowing,
This totally explained how I felt all this while, wow..

My heart it skips a beat when I behold.
The light that's shining through your eyes of gold.
From heavenly blood you seem to spring,
from heavenly waters you can drink.

I'll meet you on a day that never ends
I'll greet you in a way that heaven meant.
You lay me down gently on the leaves
You cover me over in my sleep.

I never did say that I wish I could,
I never could pray because it's just no good.
I hope you don't break my heart of stone,
I don't wanna scream out loud and wake up on my own.

And as I close my eyes and when the sky turns red,
I realise just what you are.

You're an idler's dream and you're singing “shangri la..”
Shangri la, Shangri la, Shangri la~

Nightmares

Rest assure, everything will be over soon.

No more dreams no more pain.
"Maybe one day we’ll wake up and realise that this will all just be a dream."

last

"Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me?
Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams?"

I believe Lucinda in Knowing wished she knew a little lesser.
Afterall, ignorance is bliss.
ciao, training!

last 2 lessons :(

Last 2 lessons before Monday blues are officially back!
DAAAAAAAAAM :(

I did this video today.

I spared some time exploring and revisiting my past,
the trails I once walked are still so fresh in my mind.

gooodness me

updates

Alvin finally got his wedding shots from the photographer.
I'm only ganna post up a few and will get to see the rest tmmr
that is if i can join them for the gathering :(
I really miss family gatherings, arghhhhhhhh..

And also I met up with Seanny Manfred and the rest last friday.
We had so much to catch up cause it's already been like 2 years since I last saw them.
Good times man, good times. We sould do it again real soon.

Sleep, training, ciao.
delilah i can promise you
that by the time that we get through
the world will never ever be the same.

i'm a nerd, yay!

as my guitar gently weeps,

Smells like autumn, smells like leaves;
you don't know that you'll rust and not belong so much
and then get left alone.
Glassy eyes and wooden teeth, the engine rusted in deep deep sleep.
It waits, and it waits, to awake.

a soundtrack off "spirited away".
I remember I skipped school to watch it in the library.
I would love to hear it liveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

the thinker

One day after school I was watching Night In the Muesuem 2 in the library,
there was this part where the statue of "the thinker" came to life.

I was inspired so I decided to draw it in paint and of cause edited it in ps.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee UT.

we lost our lines

When I move to my new flat I was very happy
but when I worked out that the whispering voices I can hear when I put my head under water in the bath belong to dead people I wasn't happy any longer.
Particularly because I realise that everytime I put my head under the water when I had a bath
the voices were slightly louder than the time before.

I tried not putting my head under the water when I had a bath
but every fucking time curiousity got the better of me.
And I had to try it just for a second just to check
and of cause even half a second if that sort of thing would bother anyone

I keep asking the landlord to put a shower in,
but he says things like
"What do you want to shower for? That's a lovely old bath, that's an antique that is.
Look at it, it's Victorian, you pay top dollars for one of those in the reclaimation yard"

Hah..it's alright for him.
He hasn't got fucking dead people talking to him everytime he washes his hair

"sm"

I despise myself too

Surviving sunday.

Everything that is happening around me is very distracting.
I know the root of problem but I'm still stuck.

So nowadays I rarely think about the right stuffs.

Give me back my piece of mind,
I wanna start thinking again!
I don't wanna loose my juice.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

someone you used to know

so dreamy
so nice so nice

Alvin and Debbie's wedding.

http://ehmstupid.xanga.com/486885074/item/

Saturday, May 20, 2006 wow so long ago since the ROM,
and yesterday they finally had an official wedding at Marina Mandarin.
Very happy for the both of them and may their marriage be a smooth sailing one.

Not in a mood for words, here are some pics I took over the 2 days.