I dont know you but I want you
All the more for that

Words fall through me and always fool me
And I cant react

Thoughts

To love once is enough
Because doing it a second time is pointless
Almost baseless.

AND I HATE THE DREAM I HAD LAST NIGHT.
sigh

You guys can prolly see I have almost jiro pictures in all my latest post
so here's one,
Yesss.. we bought the same teeshirt and pants hahaha!




This is already the third time I actually learnt something from a young boy.
My younger cousin Jeffrey asked me this like really randomly on one of the family gathering.

"Eh, Louis kor kor I ask you ah.
Your father's life or your life more important?"

I had a "brain freeze" for a few seconds
and my thoughts were all over the place.
Deep down I know I was totally own by that simple question.

Instead I asked him back the same question,
"So Jeffrey, which is more important to you?"

He said this.
"Of cause my Papa one la stupid!
Without my Papa's life, where will got my life.

If you choose your life, you very selfish leh!"

wow...

*My other younger cousin argued,
"No! My life more important.
Who will carry on the Chen family's name without my life?"*

updates

sorry fo the lack of updates
cause i've been real busy fufilling my new year resolution lately.

my 7D plan is somewhat on hold, my funds are running like real low now because of all the partying, arghhh..
This is not the type of life I once wanted but Hey, I'm learning hahaha!

Just a few moments ago I was reflecting because of something that happened today.
And there's this one thing I remember I did 3 years which I regret ALOT.
I can't and don't think I ever will say what I did, but aiya nvm!
At least it's still a confession, I feel much better now..

Sometimes in life you'll be cruelly judge by a single action you made
and from then on you realise there's no way of turning back to reverse that action.

If I have only one wish,
I want everyone around me to be happy.
peace.

:D

Will update this space when I have the time.

This space is the only place I can really be myself

Yet another lesson learnt on my way to work.
Why do little kids always ask the simplest yet valuable question?


I was sandwiched between a bunch of shallow secondary school kids who think they own the world and an innocent bunch of primary school boys.

One of the little boys said this to his other three friends, "Why must I always alight alone? Can all of you accompany me for one round and let me alight first?"
I can't really make out what his friend's reply was, but from the look on the little boy's face it was obviously a nono.

It took me awhile to observe and I asked myself this,
"At the end of our Journey in Life, don't we all alight alone too?"

If that LRT ride reflects that little boy's life,
I hope he will learn that friends he made along the way will not be able to accompany him in the end.

Be brave and face your deepest fear.
Loneliness is only temporary;
it's only about you getting use to a foreign feeling you thought you hate.

Loneliness gives Man both time and the opportunity to spend time alone,
Ponder.



and Happy Lunar New Year peeps!
CIAO :D

Everybody Hurts

When the day is long and the night,
the night is yours alone.
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

R.E.M

Lucky I got my little sketch book for company during work.
Ciao!

interchange

A few days ago at the interchange while I was on my way to work in the morning I overheard a mom telling her son this, "Everyone just want to go to somewhere else."

"Interchange, Somewhere else".
These two words are indeed thought provoking. Humans are never contented with whatever they have in their hands.

Everyone have their own perception of interchanges and I will say it's something that all of us cannot avoid; we all have our very own medium to get us somewhere in life.
Afterall we are all here just to enjoy our short stay on Mother Earth while we wait for our turn to the afterlife.

The little boy might not be of age to understand the truth of the matter.
But for the words of wisdom,
Thank you "Mom", it was a great lesson.

Karma

Autumn days may fade away
But memories will always stay the same

I guess what ever that is happening right now is part of the karma payment plan.
I use to read the causes and effects when I was really young,
honestly because the book was heavily illustrated and it was kind of special?

Took me almost two decades to realise it actually exist.
Just like how ripples are formed when a stone is dropped into a calm and still water,
an infinite energy created.

I shouldn't have mess with the karma police,
why didn't I understand this part of radiohead's song earlier?
"this is what you get
this is what you get
this is what you get when you mess with us."

Anyway this was what I was up to lately,
take care and pyepye.

I rather have a decent conversation with a total stranger.

Decisions

There comes a point in everyone's life when you'll have to make big decisions.
Decisions that will cause a major change in your current life.

After embarking on something new, you'll be left all alone to face a brand new world.
You will wonder, what fresh stuffs will you be experiencing in this next journey of your life?
Will it be another fruitful lesson learnt in time?
Or will it be a blast instead, way better than you already had before.

So here I am at the crossroad once again,
questioning myself what I really want for myself in the coming years.
Should I stop being a dreamer and start being a doer who doesn't reflect?

I don't know man, I honestly don't..

Whatever it is I feel that everything we do must be of a good purpose.
Not the type of purpose which people normally misinterpreted as self-gain.



That aside!
I'm like hooked on Taiwan serials now. Didn't know it was that entertaining, bwahahaha not as cheena as I thought it was leh, seriously. I got myself a new Idol also :P WILL WATCH MORE!
And I realise it's been a while since I post pictures up, I think I'm getting old and feel that sometimes good old words are still a better form of expression.

Well Well Well, Seeya!

it's not a question but a lesson learnt in time
for what it is worth, it was worth all the while..

Silence young one

"I took uh, 42 years to write
and about 4 minutes to sing"

There's a yearning undefined
People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess

The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness..

There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside.



Don't be angry with people who are different
I learn that acceptance is noble
a feeling so great, it is indescribable

And I'm pretty much stressed out over FYP lately!
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp! No more EMPRO in my life please.......

fuck my temper la

Spending $20+/Day on food is really no joke...
byebye $$$$ :(

Time of the year again

Time to review all my new year resolutions I wrote last year,

2008:
"Academic - I'll do my best for my Year 3 and get both my FYP and PP over and done with.
DB - Try my best to get into the main team.
Family - Spend more time with the people that always love me unconditionally.
Personal - Control my bad temper and learn to appreciate everyone.
Finance - Wait till I have like 10k before I start spending! (unrealistic hahahaha :P)"

Seems like I managed to accomplish most of them
except for my Bad Temper and Savings (I only got like 100 bucks left in bank now ;S) ahahaha.

So yeah, I conclude that 2008 is fruitful!


But this time for the coming 2010 I only have 1 resolution.
It's ganna be a secret cause it is something personal anddddd I thought it'll be more practical to have just 1 so I can focus on it better.
But if you wanna add "Enjoy life as much as I can" on the resolution list then yes! It'll be two.

Ehhh no wait, make it THREE! I wanna fly to Phuket with my budds!
Recently I got so inspired by this fine young lady I chanced upon on facebook.
Her profile pictures are full of her traveling around everywhere.
I wanna travel, I wanna see the world!

kbai! Happy holidays peeps,
and stay safe!

Hands Remember

"Do you remember,
what things looked like when you were young?
The voice of an old friend,
or the notes to your first song?

Lately I've been feeling like the day has come.
You'll walk up to me and erase my memory.
Can't wait to feel brand new,
I cant wait to meet you again,
friend..

I think I must have known you in another life.
I think our rocking chairs used to rock together
all night.."

Updates o Updates

Sorry for the lack of updates.
So I'm back from the long awaited Batam Trip :) It was a blast!!
I don't expect much, having fun with all my good buds is good enough.

Enjoy the video and here are 2 links to all the pictures I took.
Takecare and up next, COUNTDOWN PARTY!!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=181468&id=750531141&l=74a593ea16
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=181601&id=750531141&l=f6271b5e1d

Chalet

Lolol sorry for the past 2 days if I haven't been myself.
Don't know why I caught the emonemobug, but I'm fine now.

Just had a family chalet over the long weekend and I was really hoping that I could recharge myself from this break but in the end I fell sick instead -_- hahaha, goodness.
Been a long time since I spend time with my relatives, I remember last time all of us will meet up almost every weekend for gatherings. They still do now but I can't join them as often due to trainings and work.

That's why I'm in such a dilemma considering if I should continue paddling next year ARGHH!
I realised there's more things in life and I've been really selfish for this past 3 years.

That aside,
my brother, Derek and I accompanied Alvin to GAINT to shop for our BBQ on day 2.
LMAO it's the first time I actually shop for so much groceries, like about 3 trolleys full?!
I had fun honestly, shopping for food together with my cousins and brother is all I want to ask for in life :) Although the last night was kinda screwed up because of the dumb fever and flu. I still ENJOYED MYSELF! ALOT! Ciao peeps.

I'm proud to be in this team

Sorry if you think that this post is emotional or gay I don't really care.

I really want to let it all out and partly because I'm listening to friends forever, the song we sang together under the bridge for our very first set yesterday.

Other people often question or even mock at us.
Why the hell are we putting so much effort in a sport for? Why are you sacrificing so much? Are you crazy, why do you wake up so early during weekends?
And a few of us even went to the extreme and put too much priorities on the sport so much so that they neglect their studies.

But we should never blame these people who question us,
because none of them can feel what we experienced, the adrenaline rush when you're racing down seat by seat chasing other boats who are ahead. After late night training you still drag yourself to school the very next day. The hell day when the captains try their level best to break that big ego you brought in when you first join the team. Never can they feel all of this.

And the most memorable one I had so far, the part when we said glory is FOREVER.
I teared at the word "forever" there's nothing to be shy about. Because this is the first time I can hear from everyone's voice how much they really want it. I can tell from how tightly you guys gripped each other and that fire burning in each of your eyes.

I'm sorry that this year's Regatta have to end this way. But I've totally no regrets.
I told some of you this, we might lose the medals but we gained something much more valuable.
A simple and pure word, Bond or some of you may call it friendship.

I finally feel the pain of being a year 4.
That is I have to see people from my very first batch leave in front of my eyes yet I can't do anything about it.
If there's anything I can keep, I want time to stay after the debrief when we're all happily throwing the year threes high up in the air. I will never forget everyone of them.

I know most of you will be lost after today's race although we know our next goal is POLITE.
But from today till then it's going to be a long and tough journey. Let's try to keep as close to our promise as possible and train as hard as we can without complains.

Lastly I want to thank the people who came down who support us.
Good to see people like andreuw, nich, firdaus, kia, louis lee, faris, ky and alvin.

This year my regatta ended in a loop, I ran with nich on the side supporting RP all the way till the finishing buoy like how I did during my year 1 days. I remember that time I was running with my camera snapping pictures.
Good times good times.

I'm proud to be in this team.
goodnight.

Let the poets cry themselves to sleep

When the telephone was a tin can on a string
And I fell asleep with you still talking to me
You said you weren't afraid to die

The end of paralysis, I was a statuette
Now I'm drunk as hell on a piano bench
And when I press the keys it all gets reversed
The sound of loneliness makes me happier

And I never thought this life was possible
You're the yellow bird that I've been waiting for

brighteyes

Pee pee pee

Finally met up with my relatives after so many weeks of trainings
and I'm so happy to see everyone there including Kevin.

Grrrrr and recently for the past 2 weeks my grades are dropping!
Must get back all my A's.
So many stuffs coming up,
Regatta, Batam trip and the one I'm looking forward to, a family chalet in 2 weeks time!! Woohoo :)

And to the guys teammmmmmmmmmm,
I thank all of youuuuuuuuuuuuu veryvery much
for making the UOB night such a memorable one. Although the laopasat satays abit not worth it la. But still I really appreciate and enjoyed every second of it.

Once again from the bottom of my heart, "thank you!"
6 more days guys 6 more days.


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.

It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone..

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

Yet another classic word beauty
byeeeee